Big decisions.....

Have you ever felt like you are stuck between a sord and a wall?, well..me this week.
After a lovely weekend up-state N.Y. everything went up-side down. Few days ago recieved the news that my father had a heart attack and that his was havind a heart open surgury. I almos fade. I felt like I was standing on the edge of a cliff, wasn't a good felling. Many things were throu my head, like guilt for being here and not there when my family needed me, i felt frustation. I couldn't do anything my hands were tie, having that unpleacent feeling made me sick.
I have been living here for three years, I'm studying, working and i have found someone who i want to be with.
Before I got the news of the surgury I didn't know what to do. Should I leave everything that I have here and go there and stay or should I go there for a peririod of time till the things get better and then come back?, if i do that I would have to drop my studies, leave my job and my boyfriend. What would you do in my position? what do you think is best? You care for everybody and of course you don't want to disappoint anybody....
Well, I don't want you let you hang with the story... yesterday my father was operated and he is fine. The surgery was a succes and the doctors say that he is going to be a strong as a bull.